Back where i started when i got to Riley

    Life sure does take an interesting turn of events. Had a mRI done on my shoulder, I was told it would be negative because it was pain I was having for almost a year. It showed up as a partial tendon tear. I had a pt test this last week. If i took it with everyone knowing i had a torn tendon it was good (if i passed) and if i failed my out come might be the same. I opt not to take it cause i cant do push ups well. So now with out my flight doc telling me it wont heal fast or with out going to ortho yet. I get told that i am going to get transfered out of the flight company and back to my old unit. It didnt take long to get kicked out. I had a feeling it was going to happen at the start but I got put threw hell for 2 months for nothing. It was hard for me to except it but it might before the best. I get sick with the thought of getting yelled at another day during pt. I dont like getting treated like i am less then nothing because i am not as fast or as strong as others. I am hoping going back to my new unit it will be less stressful, and make me happy again. I am not sure if it will. I know my old unit has its own stressors to it but they are not like this one. I was asked by some other medics in my company now if after i get better if I am gonna come back when i am healthy and all my issues have resolved. I cant say i want to. I was thinking of this as a steping stone to the PA program. I know know i dont want to do something cool anymore in the army. I am ready for the next step regardless if its PA school or vet school i am more then ready for it. Friday is the ortho apt. Hopefully its fixable with minimal stuff to do. So i can still function well in a medical job outside of here.